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Sunday, January 8, 2012

so it hasn't taking me a long time to realize that this isn't getting read by anyone but that's OK it's for me to get things off my cheat.anyways i have been stressing out lately my sister is staying here but, man my house seems to get dirty so fast grrr.... man do i wish i could get a better house...the habitat want to build me a house on my land but I'm not sure that would be a good idea because.i have a ant problem real bad the have all but reining the trees so i think they would eat the wood away plus the mice here are bad to I'm in the city but lined up with  a corn field,i don't know...but any way another thing that has been on my mind is that when i was young two of my children were adopted out i know whee they live and thanks to facebook  one of them try's to get a hold of me but m not sure i can talk to him...bc of him only being still in his teens.i just cant wait until the dayu i see them.i feel bad though because there dad has passed away.they wil never get to meet him . he and i wasnt talking but 3 weeks before he passed away he called me. got my number off of facebook. he wanted to ask if i have i had see or heard from the boys i knew of them on facebook but i never talked to them   but i could tell them that i knew that they were fine and that they lived close to me. the next thing i know i'm getting a phone call telling me joe has passed away....life is so short.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

  • well i went to a church today to get clothes for my sisters kids today they moved in with me.courts placed them here.its hard with all of us but we will manage i guess. god never gives me more than i can handle. well that's what i keep. telling myself.my sister Jeannie is the one who i can tell my important thins to. i was just married. well in August. and i love it i  have been living with my now husband for 3 years.  before getting married. but i love it my hubby and i almost never fight. it is nice to feel loved and cared for. well last night we watched don't be afraid of the dark. it was alright  .scared  the kids.. but they liked it.well  I'm gonna get off here for now .spend time with family...later...tater

Friday, January 6, 2012

wakeupwithme: But i want to love him.

wakeupwithme: But i want to love him.: *i never knew what the term schizophrenia. meant . mental illness yes but never did i think it meant that my life was going to be a prison ....

wakeupwithme: But i want to love him.

wakeupwithme: But i want to love him.: *i never knew what the term schizophrenia. meant . mental illness yes but never did i think it meant that my life was going to be a prison ....
hellooo...my peeps
so just wondering how many of you have kids that have been adopted  ?

But i want to love him.

*i never knew what the term schizophrenia. meant . mental illness yes but never did i think it meant that my life was going to be a prison . I mean you never really think that your going to be in prison if you behave. and. follow the laws.but i was wrong but the prison was in my own heart and in my home.i was in love and so was he . and he was sick with and illness and i didn't think that we shouldn't give love a try simply because he was sick.i mean what kind of woman would i be. i am far from perfect. so mine and his hearts grew fonder of each other  but little did i know is that while we were falling in love he was begin to question me... 
         So have you ever been so in love.I  mean so deep that your every breath  of their being is inhaled into you.well that is the kind of love that i had for him.he wasn't from around here i could tell from one glance of him.he was waring cowboy boots and baggy jeans .he had tucked into his back pocket a wife beater .and  a cap on.." country" i though from one look at him...yum. i thought to myself.but i didn't know how right i was when i yelled hey crazy white  boy,, from across the street he looked across the at me with a shit eating grin.. from his gesture i should have known better but my mind and my heart weren't working together that day.